wtf
Posted by joanarc at 07:23 PM

nagkukunwari akong di kami nag-eevaluate. nagkukunwari akong wala kaming gagawin.
nagkukunwari akong walang kaming ipapass na chapter 2 ng thesis.
nagkukunwari akong nabasa ko na ang a tale of two cities - deadline bukas ng hapon. achievement: nasa chapter 2 na ako: the mail - book 1 of 3. chapter 2 of a million.
nagkukunwari akong madami akong pera kaya ang dami kong bininili.
nagkukunwari akong mabait. pero di naman talaga- dahil wala akong gana.
nagkukunwari akong madami akong energy.
nagkukunwari akong excited sa mga nangyayari.
nagkukunwari akong gwapo pa rin ang kras kong 2nd-sya ay boses bading.
nagkukunwari akong maaga matulog, pero wala naman talaga ako non. dahil sa dahilang di ko mawari.
nagkukunwari akong bumili ng pol dy book. sa katunayan, nagphotocopy lang ako. ng chapter 19-21 (di pa yung buong libro)
nagkukunwari akong mabubuhay, di ko naman sigurado.
nagkukunwari akong masaya, di naman talaga.

*tears*
drink with me

preparing me
Posted by joanarc at 04:49 PM

spending two days in a row at the library was not what i expected.

tiring. when i get old, im going to be blind.

drink with me

changes are no good
Posted by joanarc at 01:27 AM

someone told me last week that he's changing into someone i know nothing of.

i am not supposed to notice (kasi nga i am not supposed to know) pero nawalan ako ng friends sa friendster at ilang testimonials.

nagulat ako but i smiled.

war is so on.

i might lose it but we both know i'm the one having the good life not the other person.

oo galit ako. siguro bitter na rin

on the look out ka jan. leche

hibang. sintu-sinto.hangal.sira.baliw.tanga.gago.puta.

ako ay labis na natututwa

grrrr




drink with me

when all you have is all you are
Posted by joanarc at 02:56 PM

i've always been reminded that when everything else fails, you only got yourself to help you.

well some people thought a fairy god father would wave the scepter and change the person that he is when truth is, he never wants to change the way he was.

stop promising all the things you want to keep on saying because no one is believing. i'm tired of the coating my words. unfortunately, you were the first victim. because, i can't stand the way you've been acting all these ten years. a decade of jumping from one person to another, hurting people and making a great deal of innocence in it.

admit it. you love dangling everybody.

well, i'm did not. will not ever fall for that one.

because if i did, i might be on the way to the bus station right now.

come back to me when you've regained (if there was any to begin with) all the self- respecting and trust you've been preaching around.

drink with me

Posted by joanarc at 08:47 PM

my cousin came over last weekend. reminded me that you're using everybody for some unknown, evil reason. just by knowing all the things you did together made me want to find you and beat the crap out of you til you turn into a bloody pulp.

not because i'm hurt. but because you hurt one of the most important people in my life. i always say i get mad when people don't get what they deserve. she did get what i wished, to be hurt. but you haven't got your karma yet (even a piece of conscience, for that matter) and i don't think you will. because everybody is blinded by your charm, which i can't find.


last saturday, i watched one tree hill and a dialogue struck me. "we are all imperfect but it hurts a lot when somebody wasn't what you expected."

we all say that we don't expect, we just hope for the best. that's plain bullshit. because we all know at the back of our minds that we have these criteria for everybody. we expect people to fulfill what is expected of them. that's why people get hurt.

no expections is, well, expectations.

life is so fucking good.
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watch in good company. so worth it.
1 drowned

thank you
Posted by joanarc at 08:30 PM

during a "deliberation" at a certain [bleep] i heard a lot of excuses of why i can't be [bleep]. my choice of [bleep], because i'm on this position. when the truth is, they don't really like the way i treat them, the way i look at them, the way someone is so much better. i've seen their bet and it's a joke. much as i hate to admit it, i'm not that friendly.

i know that my whole life and i can't change it. i don't want to get close with people i don't know. diskarte nya yun. i do my work, i am punctual, i try to be nice. but i know me being nice still gives off this "i'm the greatest here, don't fuck with me" vibe. i don't care.

this is me. life is unfair and i know it. i am defeated. just sucks when there are some things you can't control.

1 drowned

time to cry
Posted by joanarc at 01:19 AM

there always comes a time
when you lay down
then cry

not today. but yesterday.
drink with me

time machine
Posted by joanarc at 02:52 AM

when god pored chemistry. _ got the one that can complement with me. it's not the we're-so-alike-thing, it's more of like i don't need words for you to know what i'm thinking. and there's the other person who can make you smile even when you don't need to. charm siguro.

oh, well. they are all gone now. but looking at _'s profile made me laugh even when i didn't want to and _ does not need to know this. maybe, he doesn't even want.

i say i don't regret. but if i've been given a time machine, i could redo a lot of things. one of it is giving chances instead of waiting for the dead to come.
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