spitting images and roommates
Posted by joanarc at 11:01 AM

i'd rather request for you to slit my neck than see you, the spitting fucking image of my late, most favorite aunt, with grrrr.

arghhh. weird. so weird. as in goosebumps weird because i hate you by principle.

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since we have a new roommate, i welcomed her by not sleeping. stupid, i know.

and since we have not talked that long since last year, we talked about what happened with us.

and, yes, friendly people say we screwed up.

but by looking at her, you would wonder why so many people cared (me included but my care is indirect) what she is doing with her life. at first i was disappointed because i always thought she would be the one getting the good jobs, the good things, the good money, stuff like that. but then i looked at her last night and i don't even have to ask how she is. and although the path taken is hazy and rocky, she still got all those things.

me? well, let's just say she still thinks i'm evil and blames me for including her (not by me) in the "categorization."

this follwing weeks will be exciting. hahahahahaha.

guess who made the unfair fair
Posted by joanarc at 06:05 PM

and because i like to call may self as a great investigator (NO, you cannot effing pay me to investigate you whatnots, it's just for myself or whatever seduces me.) i found a lot of stuff in the cyberworld today.

you know instincts, right?

my love. this is the one saving me from everything ever since. that's why last year february, i was chatting with ca409j2 (matalino talaga makahula nito) when she asked me, "don't you miss it?"

"no," but i thought about it for a millisecond. so i PI'd stuff.

then i felt the gut-wrenching, teeth-gritting, knuckles-breaking, nails on board-sounding (are you getting my drift?) experience which i would not blame on anyone and, also, would not accept faults on.

i should've been begging but a move and a conversion can level the playing field in a heartbeat.

so, no, i really don't miss it.

too much nightmares. for everyone.

though, i wonder, why the main characters are ok (or trying really hard to like it) while the support people are struggling. or maybe it's just because the act is not really convincing.

abyss, the word.
Posted by joanarc at 09:55 AM

And yes, I can hear the footsteps, its getting fainter and fainter. So, I opened my door. Because that’s all I could do. Read about you in the books. Sing about you in the shower. And watch you in the television.

But I could step out.

But I couldn’t. No there aren’t any chains. I didn’t just bail out of prison.

So, why? Why can’t you get out?

Because this is what I do best. I know it’s all wrong but at least I know.

Stepping into darkness. Again. Is never an option.

I’ve had too many black-outs that candles, even though foul-smelling and flickering inconsistently, is still light.

Though I could buy other candles, it’s still light. Not abyss. Definitely not abyss. At least in the descriptive form of words, it isn’t.

Posted by joanarc at 02:23 PM

1. DREAM NAME:
some long name before but i've to terms with y parents about my name recently.

2. WHAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE?
happiness, the wish of a selfish dog.

3. CURRENT CELLPHONE RINGTONE:
depends sa tatawag so it would be like screening calls.

4. FAVORITE PLACE IN THE MALL:
CBTL, booksale, rockwell's independent lifestyle section, and crossing's the ramp.

5. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD:
X soul-splitting headache

6. FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING:
X ayoko na!

7. MOST EMBARASSING CD IN YOUR COLLECTION:
X honeyz. hehehehehe

8. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME:
X haven't really thought about it. because i'm still thinking if i'm having a child or not.

9. FAVORITE BAD GUY:
X li'l zee from city of god

10. BY CHOICE, A TIME MACHINE WILL TAKE YOU WHEN AND WHERE?
X renaissance period

12. IF YOUR PRESENT boy FRIEND SUDDENLY BECAME YOUR EX?
bitin ang tanong mo, ineng.

13. TV SHOWS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH?
entourage, that 70's show, grounded for life

14. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
20 million dollars

15. WHAT'S GONNA BE YOUR WEDDING SONG?
everyday is a holiday with you - esthero, infinity - merrick

16. DESCIBE YOUR TYPICAL GIMMICK NIGHT IN VIVID DETAIL:
sayaw/kanta, kwento, inom, kwento

17. WHAT SONG ALWAYS GETS YOU IN A ROMANTIC MOOD?
maybe tomorrow - stereophonics

18.YOUR FAVORITE FLOWER YOU WANT TO RECEIVE FROM YOUR GF/BF?
gerberas.

Posted by joanarc at 09:34 AM

teka, ha? sandali lang. sandali lang talaga... di ko magets e

magkakawrinkles na ko sa kakaintindi e.

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i'm not really supposed to understand anything about this. hell. i'm not even in the position to get it.

just, hay. this is, technically, you know.

i am so not making sense.

just that if i could choose for you, it would not be that.

but, hell, it is your life.

so, good luck with head dress person.